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Posted by Hmmm on 10/27/2004, 3:51 am, in reply to "LOL"
ok katie....that message on here from the 2nd of october didn't say anything about how long one knew another or from when.....i just read it..you know...upsetting ones head how....tell me how....and i am getting young....i aint even going to go there.....ok, well i take that back i will.....1) i don't have the funds to raise a child, 2) it cost quite a bit to raise a child.....i could probably keep going but if i do...it will probably get me yelled at so i am going to leave it at that...and the whole young comment katie.....no, i don't think so....i am not getting young......it was ####ed up for me when i was growing up.....i didn't have a childhood and i don't want it, i can't go backwards in time...i can only go forward.....and i don't want to hear it about having a kid....don't rub shit in my face...ok, because from just reading the message that i am now replying to, well has me quite pissed, this is my aunts board i aint going to start shit here..tell me aunt, i will get yelled at....probably banned from posting here.....loose a friend, probably alot of ppl will not like me because of this, its really pointless for me.....i don't come here to the board much...you want the names that i have used here...well lets see i have used The Vampire Lestat, MERLIN, DragonMasterMerlin <------(used this one FOREVER) , DMM. you know you speak of me as if i am a child.....no katie.....i am not, you know something this is pointless also...you accuse me of having about a million names on here NO i don't...i rarely come here now....because normally when i post no one really says anything....so this might just be the last posting that i put here because i feel that if i post anything someone will try and turn it around or make it seem like i am hurting someones feelings so i just aint going to bother with it.....oh and with the names that i have used here that aren't mentioned most of the time when i post under hiding like that is so that YOU KNOW WHO I AM AND NO ONE ELSE but it seems that well it don't matter.......i will come around to see if i have a response to this message cause after that i might not post here again because its just causing too much controversy i know you love me....one can say that to me til that are blue in the face...if you are wondering what i meant when i said i had a ####ed up childhood you can ask my aunt because i will not tell you, i don't want to tell you, well i could but i am not, reason for that i guess is that i want no one to fill sorry for me and tell me that everything will be ok because it isn't....thats just some of my life that has been taken from me that i will never get back...you know you post the message that you did but yet you don't know wtf i am going through right now.....you have a kid so what....i aint saying anything bad about it....my you see he has a mom....me i might be loosing mine and you want to call me child, and say that i am getting younger not older...well this message here might just hurt you, its not my intentions but i aint in no good mood now, i didn't ask for what was said.....if there was a problem with me posting as i hide my aunt would have said something to me or would have posted a message for me on here about it.....apparently i have hurt you by doing that and I AM SORRY but i don't think that is going to be good enough after you read this message....i don't know if you was joking or not in your message but i aint joking i am not in the mood for jokes, oh and here is some more info for you, well #### it i won't speak a word of that...all i will tell you is that once i had left my aunts house for good as far as living with her things went down hill for me but i won't worry you with that because i am getting "Younger" i don't even see why i am stil writing this message perhaps it will sink in that the more shit like this happens to me the more i become less sweet and nice...i am not the same since i had gotten with that phsyco b###h that i dated...just when i try to go back to being as sweet as i was before her it seems that it will take a while but i will get there eventually, it will take some time but i will get there.....you know i don't want to loose you as my friend but i guess that after you get done reading this message you will probably stop talking to me and i wouldn't blame you if you did stop talking to me...i probably deserve after this but i don't think that matters now cause this message is almost done with....all the times where you told me of how bad things was going for you and how i listened to you as you told them to me because i was being a true friend to sit there and listen to your troubles and try and help you the best i could.....and #### it i am going to stop with this message its just pointless for me to continue with this message....i have done dug myself a grave and have fallen into it waiting for the dirt to be pushed over filling the hole and sealing me into my grave. you will always be my friend katie always....and i love you as my friend....but with this message here i might loose my friend and get yelled at...seems thats all i am good for anyways is ####ing up....and i think that with this message here i have ####ed up big time worse than i have before.....so i end this message here...so long katie and take care...i will be around on the net....take care and Ciao
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P.S. i await getting yelled at as well as you being mad at me for this....like i said i can say that i am sorry til i am blue in the face but that wont change anything at all because i know that in the end i always lose....so i say this and remember it always Tu Es Mi Amiga, Mi Amor Tu Mi Amiga. thats spanish if you didn't know....if you can catch me online i will tell you what i said in spanish if you ask me and i will tell you....that is if you still want to talk to me after this and like i said i don't blame you if you don't want to talk to me anymore, cause i always #### up...i am nothing but a #### up sometimes not all the time just sometimes....then there are times where i #### things up like here i know that i have ####ed up big time, i also know that i won't hear the end of it. i don't know if you was joking in that message or not but it doesn't matter now cause what is said has been said and nothing can change that i know that...i am going through a rough time right now and *sighs* i don't want to trouble you with it, i will coupe with it like i always do with everything else...damn i have been writing on this message here for almost an hour or so, well i gues that this is enough, if you don't want to be my friend after reading this message here i don't blame you and i will understand why you don't cause i have brought it upon myself.. *hugs* take care Katie ¢¾
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