Yesterday - November 22 - was the day my firstborn child, a son we named Jason, was born 40 years ago. It was suggested by Jason's friend to honor his memory this year with a 40th birthday celebration. It's been 15 years since Jason passed, but after much thought - and the fact that I'm a grandmother of 2 precious grandchildren - Ava, 4 & Jaxon 22 months - that it would be a sweet thing to do. We had a small family party and I baked a special chocolate cake & sentimentally wrote Jason's name & Happy 40th Birthday. (I couldn't help but wonder what he'd look like at 40, what he'd be doing as a career and if he'd have family of his own.) We ordered pizzas from Capri (Jason as a college student delivered Capri pizzas part-time Friday nights).
I stopped a day earlier at the liquor store to buy my staple wine but couldn't locate it. As I walked up & down the aisles looking for an eye-catching label, I got a big, angelic thrill from above upon finding a San Francisco white wine, "Calling All Angels!" Perfect! When my daughter arrived to the party with her family, she walked into my home with Jaxon in her arms, saying "look what I found" and presented me with the exact same bottle of wine! I was WOW'd! I told her that was her brother's way in spirit of connecting us with Calling All Angels to let us know he's around - what are odds of us finding the same wine with so many selections and she lives in the next state, 35 minutes away!
Another sign we got yesterday was from my brother Steve who passed almost 3 years ago on Dec. 15. He & Jason were very close as uncle & nephew. Someone noticed wild turkeys (an unusual sight in my neighborhood) on my next door neighbor's front lawn! They counted them to be a party of 15! I connnected that number to my brother & remarked, "Stevie's here too"!
That wasn't the end . . . later on some of us decided to go out for Chinese food. Jason's friend wanted to treat! My fortune gave me an important, useful message for the melancholy day - "Don't let the past and useless details choke your existence"!! So I decided to let go of the "what could have beens" with Jason's unfinished life.
It was truly a beautiful, reaffirming day for me as a bereaved mother!
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Wishing you all holiday ADCs throughtout the Thanksgiving and Christmas seasons <3
And I'm so sorry for the new names and extend my sympathies on your losses
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