Edited by NaturallyCowgirl on 9/14/2015, 8:07 am
The waiting too late situation will never leave me. It changed me in a way that has benefited other animals because I have volunteered numerous times to be the one holding the lead rope or helping to pay for a euthanasia. That experience will just linger a little bit with me forever. There was no way to say "I'm sorry" for that.
Do you remember when we put down Ky's old appy? We agonized over it and hated making the choice. He was old and had been used hard all his life. His previous winter was uncomfortable, slipping in the mud on even a slight slope. We put him in a stall & run to keep him on level ground thinking that would help, but even with hand walking every day he would become so stiff from standing still that he was no better off.
We put him down on a day when another of his pasture mates also was scheduled. We did a nice photo shoot with him and his pictures hang in our house still. We had ample time to love on him, tell him how much we appreciated him and his last day Ky and I took him carrots and a doughnut.
It really was one of our best days with him in a weird way. We were surrounded by friends, a vet we really like and a good friend came with his backhoe. Both horses went quietly and the other horses were given a chance to say goodbye. We were given a chance to say goodbye... before it also had to be "I'm so sorry".
You were one of the people that went through that with us- so I wanted to let you know, we have had our moments when we missed him, but not once have we regretted it.
You're making the right choice. I'll be praying for your tender heart as you say goodbye.
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