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Posted by Bunny on 1/31/2006, 6:22 pm, in reply to "Re: any updates Bunny?" Thankyou justme. I was shocked to read spinefishes comment as well, and I didnt return for a while because I was really upset. If it was that easy then none of us would be here writing posts and everyones problems would be solved just like that. My boyfriend went on a drug binge and didnt come around for days. After lots of thinking and contimplating and crying I decided to have the abortion. The morning I was to have it done, he showed up. We talked and I told him we arent capable of raising a child at this point in our lives. As I was walking out the door to drive to the clinic, he snatched the keys outta my hand and took off running saying that I cant kill his child. I was stranded with no keys to my house or car. I walked up to my job. He also had gone to my job busted in the door and threatened everyone there that if they took me to the abortion that he would kill them!! One of the guys there calmed him down and walked him out.
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As I walked up he threw my keys at me. I was so freaked out at this point, I also missed my appointment.
Now a few days later we have talked and decided that we will keep the child. I really do want this to work, but he is the one that needs to make the necessary changes. He once again promised and swore up and down that he wouldnt do drugs anymore, and I the forgiving person that I am believed him again, and I stress the word again.
Well again I have been dissapointed, he did drugs again today!! Im done. I really need to be done. I realize that I keep allowing this situation to happen and I think for the first time in my relationship that I am tired. I am sick of being lied to. I am so depressed and Im not the person I used to be. I am just frustrated that all the effort I put towards this relationship has led me to this point of deep unhappiness.
So is this how it happens for most of us codependents?? Do we just wear our self thin to the point of utter dissapointment? Because I really feel that this was it for me and him, and I pray that it is. Thankyou everyone for all the support over the past year.
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