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Posted by Rebecca I just graduated from college, and I am moving 10 hours from my hometown in the fall for grad school. The reason that I'm posting is because my junior year of college, I met my boyfriend. From the beginning the chemistry was unbelievable, and we were pretty inseparable, seeing each other nearly everyday since we only lived just a few minutes from each other off campus. Well, after 2 1/2 years of being together and being used to the luxury of having all of that time together, he's gotten an internship that will put him 7 hours from where my graduate school will be. He'll be there for 6 months. For now I've moved back in with my parents to save money for the summer, and my boyfriend will be leaving in a month to begin his internship. My problem is that I'm going absolutely insane. It seems as though he's going out EVERY night, and I can't stand it. My heart races and I often get angry with him for having fun without me (VERY unhealthy, I'm aware of this). I often wonder who he's with, what he's doing, and whether or not he's being faithful. He tells me he's going to call and then it "slips his mind", and when we do talk it's usually only for a few minutes. However, when we do get to talking, he declares his undying love for me, and that although this situation is undesirable, that he knows once it is over that he's sure he wants to start a life with me. I know my thoughts of him being unfaithful are unfounded since he hasn't been unfaithful before, but now that I'm hours away I feel like I don't have the control to see what he's doing, or who he's with (again, completely unhealthy, I know). I go from extreme happiness after a good conversation with him, to extreme anger when he "forgets" to call, or if I don't hear from him for a day. I know we can't see each other, but is it too much to ask for a "Hi, just thinking of you" phone call once a day? I just don't like/understand the feelings that I'm having. I'm feeling very jealous, possessive, and very much like I'm losing my mind. I'm afraid to talk to anyone close to me since this isn't who I seem like on the outside to them. Sorry I wrote a novel, but PLEASE, any advice would be appreciated.
on 5/21/2006, 11:44 pm
Hi All, I'm new but I've come across this forum while surfing the net. It's past midnight, and although I should be sleeping, I simply can't because I'm so anxious right now.
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