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Posted by Jessica on 11/17/2006, 9:47 pm The worst part is, A while back he was shooting up coke and so there is the risk that i might have contracted HIV from him and im unbelievibly scared and mad about it. He;s done a lot of things to hurt me all because of his addictions. he's cheated twice, broken thousands of promises, publicly humiliated me, lied a million times, etc. To make things worse, i have many severe problems of my own. I am diagnosed with schizophrenia, major depression, and bulimia. I've been in therapy, day treatment, and mental hospitals many years for all this. Right now i am actually doing ok with those issues because i am taking all my meds, but when things get really stressful between me and him, i wind up physically hurting myself Shamefully i must admit that i've had numerous episodes of flying into violent rages of hitting and kicking and throwing things. I know there is no excuse for this behavior. I know this all sounds really bad and im sure you wonder why the hell i'm still with my boyfriend after what he's done and what i've done. I wonder the same thing. The problem is, i love him very much and we get along great when he is sober. And i guess i'm just not strong enough to let him go. I really dont know what to do at this point. I know im in a very dangerous situation and i cant get myself out of it. well, thanks for reading this. Sorry it ended up being so long.
hi everyone,
this is my first time posting on a forum like this... I'll try and make it as short as i can
Me and my boyfriend have been together for 3 years and living together for nearly two years. I am 19 and he is 24. He's been an addict for most of his life and it is really tearing us appart. He's been heavily into cocaine, pot, narcotics, and especially alcohol. He recently got out of jail for his second DUI and although he is on probation and knows he will go back to jail for A YEAR if he breaks it, he's already done coke and been drunk a number of times that i know of...maybe more.
Right now he has no job and hasn't worked for over 4 months. I'm supporting him.
also, i am a cutter and have been for years and recently i have been cutting myself again on my wrists.
I appreciate any support or advice.
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