Posted by Born2Smoke4Ever on 10/21/2009, 6:06 pm, in reply to "My Smoking Confession"
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My confession, continued....
As I drove home from work the next day, I was so excited about that night's "homework". I wanted to see if the experiences of the prior 2 nights had piqued Mackenzie's interest. After getting through the door of my house, I quickly found my pack and lit a sorely missed Capri. After not smoking for 18 hours, I my cravings are always unbearable. I sometimes find myself imagining that the smoke is making love to me, trying its best to give me the ultimate orgasm. After about an hour, Mac got home from gymnastics practice and immediately sat next to me on the couch. I noticed she was sitting really close to me, as if she were trying to second hand smoke. She watched me intently as I took drag after drag of my beloved cigarette. Finally, I just asked her if she wanted one. "Yes, please!", she said, unable to contain her excitement. As she put the Capri to her lips, I struck the lighter and offered her a light. The previous night's lessons were not lost on her, as she immediately picked up where she left off the night before. "I see you didn't forget overnight how to smoke". She smiled and said, "I watched you smoke enough, I think I got it." Though she was taking tiny puffs, she clearly was enjoying the sensation, and smiled from ear to ear every time she exhaled. Like mother, like daughter.
She asked for another smoke at homework time and at bedtime, which I gladly obliged. With every cigarette that day, I noticed her drags starting to get a little longer every time. Satisfied, I went to bed wondering what tomorrow's lesson would be. That night, I woke up to an intense craving. My favorite way to fix that craving is to chain smoke 5 cigarettes in bed while I finger myself to sleep. The first time I woke up my husband while saying "#### me, smoke!" a little too loudly, he got so aroused that we got no sleep the rest of that night!
The next day, I was again preoccupied with the lessons. Also, Mac and I needed to have a talk if this was going to go further. I started to have paranoid thoughts of her running to school and telling everyone about our lessons, which I know could be a disaster. That afternoon driving home, I mentally finalized what I needed to tell her. As I arrived, she was at the door to greet me, and immediately asked if she could smoke. I told her to light a cigarette for both of us and sit down at the table. There, I explained how much trouble we are both going to be in if anyone finds out about her smoking, and laid out the rules; no smoking outside the house, period. From now on, "you can smoke anytime you want", I said, "but only in the house". When I was completely satisfied that she understood the rules, I gave her a new pack of Capri's, an ashtray for her bedroom, and a lighter. I gave her a big hug, and we spent the rest of that night watching scary movies and smoking together. Next step....convince Dan not to kill me, and teach Mac to get the full pleasure that her Capri 120's can provide.
To be continued...
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