Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can. - Unknown
Posted by Beverly on 9/24/2009, 8:54 am
But, I know I must push on towards health.
I guess I woke up having a 'pity party'. I feel weary of facing foods that are hard to resist, trying to do what it takes to be healthy (food, exercise, etc), measuring, thinking about what I can and can't eat, staying away from trigger foods and all the rest.
I am 57 years young and have been fighting this battle for 50 years. Sometimes I feel weary of trying to make it happen. I am proud that I recovered from bulimia (33 years ago since). I even did that on my own - heck people didn't even talk about in the sixties. But, I still can't seem to get that food thing right in my head.
Yesterday was a healthy day until the evening. I had a gathering at my house. I put out a huge bowl of strawberries. My friend brought things including brownies. I resisted the brownies - but, it was all that I could think about all evening - the brownies. I ate my strawberries and resisted the brownies. But, I was so, so stressed out from NOT eating the brownies that I overate when she left. It was like a was shaking - waiting for a food fix. Good grief.
To you younger friends. NOW is your time - you don't want to be my age and still wondering how to make it happen.
Yes, I've had patches of food sanity, lost many pounds recently - but, gained some of it back when I injured my foot, got sick with anemia, and when murray's pay was cut and he eventually was laid off.
I will push on and keep trying. But, sometimes I feel weary of it all.
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