Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can. - Unknown
Posted by Beverly on 11/1/2009, 10:30 am
Last night Mike called me at 2 am. He said that he has been using cocaine for a long time and is very addicted. That he is ready to check himself into rehab and get clean and sober.
I was shocked, of course. I have so many feelings right now. I knew he periodically drank too much - but, never saw the other. However, I don't live in the same town.
He said he's a high functioning addict. Works (never misses a day of work), bought a house, got married, takes care of his family - but, always has this addiction on his mind and in his needs.
He told Meghan last night. She didn't know. She says she's with him in with all the way. I hope so - we'll see how it goes as he begins this journey. We all have alot to process with this information.
I don't know what to feel or exactly how I can help. I guess that will come with time.
I am a mom - no matter what age your children are - you want to make it 'all better.' However, I can't do this for him. It's killing me.
I am feeling so badly. Murray said - "He's not the first person to need to go to rehab.Better he gets to it and he shouldn't worry what others think." That's one thing he mentioned to me last night - how his grandma's will feel when they find out.
I am feeling numb, sad, angry, guilty and many more.
Please pray for him to get through the first and life long challenges of this illness.
Thanks.
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