Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can. - Unknown
Posted by Lianne on 11/4/2009, 10:53 pm
I was a skinny child and was always thin in high school. I put on weight after I got married at age 23 and I have been over weight most of my adult life since. I ahve wegihed as high as 290 and 7 years ago I got down to 150. I am approx. 5'9" .
For all of these overweight years I have said over and over that I wish I was the kind of person who ate to live instead of the person I am who lives to eat....I have always loved food. At breakfast I looked forward to lunch ..lunch to dinner, etc.
It has been 6 weeks since my operation and for some reason I have yet to get my true desire to eat back. I enjoy my food. It tastes good. Sometimes I even look forward to it but after a small amount I've had enough. I do manage to eat enough to mantian my weight as I really need my strength for my next operation and so I prefer to hold off losing right now.
All of this rambling is for a reason.
To my surprise I miss my desire for food and the pure joy it used to bring to me . I miss it terribly and I WANT IT BACK!! EVEN IF IT MEANS I WILL STRUGGLE WITH MY WEIGHT EACH DAY OF MY LIFE AS I HAVE IN THE PAST .....
Who could ever have guessed I'd feel this way???
I am so shocked!!!!!
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