Had to stop teaching classes, which was devastating. Pain every single day and although they are telling me January for surgery, no date booked yet. There's nothing I can do to ease the pain - no pain meds help, heat helps a little but not much. My first finger has been numb / frozen since July and sometimes now it's more into middle finger. My arm / hand actually feel "numb" most of the time. This can't be good. The shoulder surgeon says it may or may NOT be related. I'm at my wit's end. Should I pursue with my own doctor? Useless. Should I just "wait and see" and pray it will get better with surgery? I feel like nothing is in my control.
Working at the gym is good but my feet hurt a lot. Insoles and better sneakers have helped a little but still I feel like a little old woman hobbling around.
Having lapband out and knee surgery have led me to eat eat and eat some more. I just am overwhelmed today. I know I have to just start - and I am trying again today - and with weight loss things will improve but right now, I'm at a dark dismal shithole of a place.
Thanks for listening