Am I Gothic Person?
Posted by Black Cobra
on 12/19/2008, 8:15 am
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I have started concerning about gothic subculture when I realized that almost all music I like is taged as Gothic rock, Gothic metal, darkrock...
I have read lot of cahracteristics of goth's and I found myself in most of it. This page explained lot of thing's to me and now I have one question that is very important for me: Am I goth? I will be wery thankful if you will help me to answer this. There are some information about me:
Age 17
I'm student of secondary school
I Like "dark", sad, melamcholic, depresive,often slow, melodic music with good lyrics. My favourite band's are: Midnattsol, Tristania, Flowing tears, Tacere, Christian death, Inkubus Sukkubus, Sins of thy beloved, old Nightwish and many more...
My favourite films are War movies like Saving private ryan, Apocalpse now and black hawk down or other films that forces me to think about life and humanity like equilibrium.
I prefer black clothes.
I like poems from Egar Alan Poe and some other poets with similar style.
I enjoy learning books and I'm able to read whole book at once. I simply open book at morning and I will close it at evening after I have readed it.
I have creative hobbies like Plastic modeling, miniature painting, origami... And I like art.
Whole my life I was loner with only few friend's and only none of them is able to fully understand my way of thinking and feeling, But that is something that even I'm unable to understand.
For some strange reason I like dark places where I can be alone and enjoy silence and think about anything. I also like ruins of medieval castles.
I donf feel good in crowd of people and I was never wery popular between classmates, they simply don't like they don't understand why I'm so defferent from them. I'm nonviolent and it is very hard to provoke me to attack but if someone archieve that it will be really bad for him. This was reason why I was often target of mockery at primary school. Everyone was thinking tah I won't do anything until one boy oversteped it...
I don't want to become someone other than my because I'm who I'm and im proud of it even when it causes most of troubles in my life because I believe that if someone tryes to be someone other than he really is he stop's being himself and if he insn't himself he is noone. I have spended most of my life by trying to fit into some group of people and it never works besause soon or later I have showed who I am and I was on begining again. I Have talked to some goth's thought internet and they were all good interesting people who were able to understand me better than "normal" people.
This article is longer than I was excepting but I cannot describe myself in few sentences.
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