Posted by Chez on 5/9/2009, 6:57 pm, in reply to "why"
I agree with Tess about the whole 'grow up' thing. I'm constantly telling my bofriend to grow up - i just had my eyes opened! I have very rarely wanted to cut myself, but on those few times i was going through what felt like torment, and i just figured everyone would be better off without me. Thankfully, I couldn't take the pain and would cover up any marks i didn't manage to make and wear longer sleeves. That was when i rediscovered my passion for writing. I noticed that certain songs would bring the pain flaring back, and i would just sit down at my computer and just type. I wouldn't even think about what i was writing, i would just keep on going untill i felt better. I think it's called Free writing? I hope this helps maybe if won't work for you. There are various forms of art to express your feelings of pain or hurt. Any pieces of art or written word coming from such intense feeling usually tends to end up big hits with artists and songwriters. or even, if you can play an instrument, you could work acousticly and write music in any form, no words needed. I hope this helps you |
: I recently started cutting myself on occasion.
: I am 26 years old and forced to move back
: in with my parents due to divorce. My
: parents are generally good people but
: towards me they can be very condescending
: and they lecture or yell instead of actually
: listening to what I have to say. It was
: like this when I was a teenager, but then it
: was supposed to be happening. Now I am
: adult still getting the "grow up"
: leccture. I use the cutting when I get so
: irritated but I can't let out the irritation
: any other way. I cannot even feel the blade
: go into my skin, but all the negative
: emotions flood out. At the same time I feel
: somewhat empowered by being able to
: "handle the pain". It may not
: sound like it makes sense. If you met me
: you likely would have no idea, but I thought
: I'd help shed some light.