Re: Am I Gothic Person?
Posted by Rose
on 8/16/2010, 11:32 am, in reply to "Am I Gothic Person?"
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Well this could have been something I posted eight years ago?
It reads like my own life story .almost.I nearly lost myself trying to be someone I am not and will never be..all just for the sake of trying to 'fit in'
Thank you Black Cobra for sharing this.
--Previous Message--
: I have started concerning about gothic
: subculture when I realized that almost all
: music I like is taged as Gothic rock, Gothic
: metal, darkrock...
: I have read lot of cahracteristics of goth's
: and I found myself in most of it. This page
: explained lot of thing's to me and now I
: have one question that is very important for
: me: Am I goth? I will be wery thankful if
: you will help me to answer this. There are
: some information about me:
: Age 17
: I'm student of secondary school
: I Like "dark", sad, melamcholic,
: depresive,often slow, melodic music with
: good lyrics. My favourite band's are:
: Midnattsol, Tristania, Flowing tears,
: Tacere, Christian death, Inkubus Sukkubus,
: Sins of thy beloved, old Nightwish and many
: more...
: My favourite films are War movies like
: Saving private ryan, Apocalpse now and black
: hawk down or other films that forces me to
: think about life and humanity like
: equilibrium.
: I prefer black clothes.
: I like poems from Egar Alan Poe and some
: other poets with similar style.
: I enjoy learning books and I'm able to read
: whole book at once. I simply open book at
: morning and I will close it at evening after
: I have readed it.
: I have creative hobbies like Plastic
: modeling, miniature painting, origami... And
: I like art.
: Whole my life I was loner with only few
: friend's and only none of them is able to
: fully understand my way of thinking and
: feeling, But that is something that even I'm
: unable to understand.
: For some strange reason I like dark places
: where I can be alone and enjoy silence and
: think about anything. I also like ruins of
: medieval castles.
: I donf feel good in crowd of people and I
: was never wery popular between classmates,
: they simply don't like they don't understand
: why I'm so defferent from them. I'm
: nonviolent and it is very hard to provoke me
: to attack but if someone archieve that it
: will be really bad for him. This was reason
: why I was often target of mockery at primary
: school. Everyone was thinking tah I won't do
: anything until one boy oversteped it...
: I don't want to become someone other than my
: because I'm who I'm and im proud of it even
: when it causes most of troubles in my life
: because I believe that if someone tryes to
: be someone other than he really is he stop's
: being himself and if he insn't himself he is
: noone. I have spended most of my life by
: trying to fit into some group of people and
: it never works besause soon or later I have
: showed who I am and I was on begining again.
: I Have talked to some goth's thought
: internet and they were all good interesting
: people who were able to understand me better
: than "normal" people.
: This article is longer than I was excepting
: but I cannot describe myself in few
: sentences.
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