I also have gone through the grief you are experiencing, after losing my sweet green man, Miko, to an infection. Even a new green buddy won't relieve the pain, but will help make new happy iggy memories. Although each of my iggies are very different ant none as sweet as Miko, I love them anyway, but still miss him. Hold onto the thought that Her spirit is happy and she's playing in the sunshine now! She will be glad when you can share your love with another iggy sometime in the future!