Posted by gnuperl on 5/4/2002, 4:10 am Over the last month or so Ive been thinking about smoking again. Im not sure why, perhaps the stress Im feeling post-9/11, I dont know. Today on my way home from work, I stopped at the newsstand and bought a pack of Winston box. I walked a couple of blocks debating whether I should open the pack and light up or just toss it in the garbage. I finally decided to open the pack and light a cigarette. I first took a couple of drags without inhaling. The taste was the same as I remembered, but I know that the real pleasure from smoking comes when you inhale! So I then took a decent size drag and inhaled. I started choking and coughed as soon as the smoke started going down my throat. I thought I must have looked pretty silly as if this were my first cigarette ever! I almost put out the cigarette, thinking what a bad idea this whole thing was. My throat was burning and I felt pretty embarrassed. After I stopped coughing, I decided to continue. I took a few more drags without inhaling, until my throat got back to normal. I was smarter this time and took a small drag and inhaled it. This went down much smoother. I didnt cough, but it still felt pretty rough. With each small drag, it got easier and as time went on more enjoyable. After I finished this first cigarette, I immediately lit another. This time I took bigger drags and inhaled them without a problem. It didnt take long for my lungs to get used to smoking again. I guess its like riding a bike, once you learn you never forget! I really enjoyed the feeling of the smoke filling my lungs. All of the stress from the workday just melted away. I felt like I was in my own little smokers world, just me and the wonderful smoke working its magic. How did I go the last 5 years without it? Im not sure if I want to continue smoking again, but I enjoyed these 2 cigarettes so much that I cant wait to smoke another. I decided to limit myself to 2 cigs a day for now and see how it goes. Ive always enjoyed smoking. I worry about the health effects, this is why I quit 5 years ago, but there isnt anything else that really replaces it. Id love to get some feedback from people who have quit and started again.
I quit smoking cigarettes 5 years ago. I was getting married and I decided it was time to quit. I had been a smoker for 17 years, I started when I was 12 and quit at 29. I wasnt a heavy smoker, between 5 10 cigs a day, but I thought it was time. I missed smoking a lot for the first 6 months or so, but as time went by I got used to not being a smoker anymore. For the first 3 years, I smoked a few cigarettes occasionally, but for the last 2 years I havent had any cigarettes at all.
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