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Posted by jm on 12/11/2005, 7:03 pm, in reply to "Re: please help me understand her" so i ended the conversation... i was upset, feeling like im alone in this mission.. i tried calling her the following day, she wouldn't answer the phone, then a series of times today (sunday) and all i got in return was "i feel bad with the way you talk to me" so i left a long voicemail appologizing.. and this is where i stand.. my heart feels like its back to square one.. what should i think? thanks again ann...
urgggg... i hadn't posted for a few days because i was starting to believe thinks were on their way back to normal with her..tuesday she calls from her work, convo starts slow, but eventually we start to plan a first date (all over again) for sunday (today) to go see a movie.. i was exstatic, she kept telling me she put on weight and that i wouldnt want to see her, i kept complimenting her saying i dont care i dont care.. so we hang up shorty after.. as soon as she gets out of work she calls me again.. we talk for about an hour longer, just like we used to when we very first started dating... the next morning she calls me as shes leaving for work saying she doesnt feel very good, fever like.. so i told her to come over and ill get her some flu meds.. she said ok!!! so she called in and skipped work.. we ended up renting the notebook and cought up on all the boyfriend girlfriend things... she stayed untill she would normally get home from work and arrive home at her parents house so they didnt get any ideas that she was over seeing me... so she went back.. 30 mins later she calls and says her parents will be out until late, and asked if i wanted to go shoppigng with her... so we did that, came back to my place, hung out for a while longer.. she called her younger brother, told him that shes back with me, but to keep it a secret, and to call as soon as their parents get home... so he calls accordingly and she leaves for her parents house... the next day she calls in sick again and spends the day with me.. another awesome day!.. day 3 she leaves work early when i get off work. spend the afternoon/evening together again.. the days become more and more fun together, she says i love you again, she bought a bunh of stuff for the new appartment, a new picture fram that we could put our pics in together... hours later when its time for her to leave she says that the day before everybody accused her of seeing me, and she said she was just seeing our cats and picking up a couple forgotten items.. they didnt exactly scold her, but made her feel really guilty... i told her "well help me out here, you have the only connection with your parents.. all i could to is send a letter, but it would take a week to arrive and they would pry tear it up... she became upset that i put the task on her, and reminded me how this whole thing was my fault and that i need to fix it, i need to gain her parents respect back... (i know i messed up and all...) i said ok well help me think of an idea, she persisted on how that is my job, not hers... so she left on a sour note... i call her a few hours later after she had been home for a while... she said everybody knows, and that we cant see eachother like this anymore, i need to fix things.. so we start to argue, because i feel like she doesnt care about me since she doesnt seem to care to help.. i just imagine the situation flipped... how i would convince my parents (jeeze why are parents so important!) that the fight was mutual, she didnt go crazy on me, i was just upset and said so.... she got more and more upset as i accused her of basically using me then running back out of the picture to resume the breakup.. she said "fine if this is what you want!" i said "is it what you want?" she responded "no" and i said alright, ive got to go...
i feel like she came back in the picture to tease me with what i lost.. but she would stair at me with so much love, and remind me over and over again how she could never leave me, but would always end the sentence with "its so bad that we had to break up"
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