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Posted by melisha
on 2/12/2007, 11:55 am
Okay so my fiance and I have been through a lot lately with deaths in the family and a relocation to Pennsylvania which is about 700 miles away from my family and everything Im used to. We actually just got into PA this weekend and he is at his first day of work. I have nothing to do today so I checked his email because I have had this feeling in my gut for a while now. I found emails conferming his account information on sites like adultfriendfinder.com and affairmatch.com. I found out his passwords and logged into his account. He had infact set these accounts up but he did not add pictures and it doesnt look like he checked the account sense he set it up because all of the messages were unread. Unfortunately I did notice he set them up in January which was only a week or so after he preposed to me. He had kind of done this before early into our relationship. He was going to college at a state univeristy and if you have ever herd of facebook I logged into his account and found out that he was flirting and trying to set up dates with other girls. It also said he was single. I freaked out and this was before we lived together. I told him I couldnt move in and he changed his account and I got an account to watch over everything. We never had any problems with stuff like that sense then...until last night. I think he got a little sloppy because he left a URL link on his desktop from this past week when we spent the time appart to see family. I clicked on it and it was really nothing big it was just ratemybod.com. It said he was single and I asked him about it and he got all annoyed that I was mad once again over something like that. So I let it go and didnt fight with him. Today however it was just really bugging me and I had to check. Now I see all of these "affair" sites he has an account with recently and even though he hasnt checked them sense he set them up it still scares me that he is setting up those accounts in the first place. Its like I work 1pm to 11pm and when Im not home he gets these urges to cheat and then changes his mind. I dont want him to get to the point where he goes through with it. Also affairmatch.com is very explicit and he wrote things like how he would like to have 3-ways and how sex is all he thinks about. I have never seen that side of him. I dont really get it. I am very pretty...I'm a model for christs sake. I take great care of him I have givin up everything for him I moved 700 miles away from everything familiar for him and I dont want to be the girl hes keeping around for the emotional support while he goes out and sleeps with other girls. I dont ever want to be the girl he keeps around until he finds something else he thinks he likes better. I know he loves me or else he would have been more proactive about cheating on those sites. What I want to know is why if he loves me and wants to spend the rest of his life with me is he having these urges or this curiosity? If someone can please help me before I go insane that would be great.
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