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Posted by Scott on 9/14/2005, 8:15 pm Well a couple of months back i met this girl at work. We seemd to click right away and became friends. I told this girl about how i was feeling and that i knew my gf was feeling the same way. I felt like we were drifitng apart and that we were both helpless to do anything about it. I started to think that i might have feelings for this girl and one night we ended up kissing. Afterwards i felt so horrible about what i had done i actually got sick. I kept saying to myself that my gf did not deserve this and how could i be so stupid to throw what we had away? I love her with all my heart and i made a huge mistake. After 2 of the worst days of my life i told my gf what i had done. Obviously she was upset but we ended up talking things out and decided to give it another try. Since all of this i have changed jobs with better hours so we have more time together. I really feel that we have re-connected and things are going much better. It still kills me that i hurt her like that. Why was i so stupid? I know she is still hurting because sometimes i will find her crying and she will express to me that she is afraid i will leave her. She calls it "having a bad day" she says she is learning to trust me again and with time we will be ok (even better then we are now) Sometimes i cry when i am alone because i know she deserves so much better then me but still she stays. I must be the most lucky man on earth. There was never a time when i didn't love her, i just don't know why i had to cause this pain to begin with. So i guess what my question is has anyone else ever been through something like this? I need some ideas of something specail i can do to reassure her that i am not going anywhere and that i really do want to be with her and only her for the rest of my life. Thanks for reading.
First let me give you some backround information on my relationship...I have been with my gf for a little over 7 years now. About 2 years ago we moved in together and at first everything was perfect. Then due to money issues i started a new job where i had to work nights. At first it was going ok i even asked her to marry me on christmas (she said yes with the wedding set for next summer) But then i started to feel very alone. I would go to work when she was going to bed at night and get home when she was leaving for work in the morning. Then i would be asleep when she got home from work and get up with only about an hour to spend time with her before i was leaving again.
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