Posted by Darren
on 5/16/2008, 3:43 am, in reply to "Couldnt resist starting again..."
198.103.134.222
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: Hiya,
:
: My names Amy, 28 years old from England. I
: have always been a closet smoker until I met
: my husband 4 years ago. He never knew I
: smoked and still doesnt.
:
: I secretly smoked through the first 2 years
: of our relationship without him knowing at
: all, then when we married I quit and didnt
: smoke anything at all. I was pleased with
: myself although it was very difficult to
: stop, I was only a moderate smoker smoking
: around 6 a day.
:
: I have resisted strong temptations for 17
: months, until 3 weeks ago when I caved in
: and started again. The weather is fab over
: here in England at the moment and I was
: desparate for a smoke whilst lounging round
: my garden, I went and bought 20 of my old
: regulars Berkeley Menthol 100's, and
: retreated to my garden.
:
: I considered the first one for a good hour
: but the desire was so strong I had to light
: it up. The first inhales were the best ever!
: It felt exactly what my life had been
: missing and the satisfaction was
: irreplaceble....
:
: As I sat in the garden that day I rekindled
: the old smoking joys and progressivley
: puffed my way through the whole pack. My
: hubby works as a chef and doesnt come home
: till late most evenings by which time im
: asleep usually. Hiding my habit isnt that
: difficult.
:
: For the last 3 weeks iv been slipping back
: into my old routine of closet smoking and
: feeling good about myself. I seem to be
: smoking more this time around usually about
: 12-15 a day, but somedays when he's off I
: cant have one- which is torture. Im not
: bothered about smoking more than before as
: im really enjoying it so so much.
:
: I must admit I do feel guilty as well as
: happy as my hubby would flip if he knew I
: smoked. I do wish I could smoke more openly
: and frequently but it really isnt an option,
: my family and hubby know me as non-smoker
: and they really wouldnt take to me lighting
: up every 20 minutes. It looks like I will
: have to stay in the closet on this one, BUT
: one thing is for certain and that is that I
: will not be stopping smoking ever again as I
: have realised that smoking is what my life
: has been missing and I really enjoy it so
: much... the cravings, the smokeyness,
: handling my cigs with care and always
: looking forwards to firing that next one up
: when no one is around.
:
: Any other house wifes experience this
: situation? Anyone evercome out and fired one
: up in front of thier hubby? what was the
: reaction?
:
: Amy
:
Stories like this fascinate me. If I lived in England you could drop over to my patio any old time for a cig! Let me know how things go with the smokes, his days off, etc.
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