Posted by Gary
on 5/24/2008, 12:46 pm, in reply to "Re: Couldnt resist starting again..."
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: Hiya Darren
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Hi Amy,
Thanks for providing us with some fascinating updates. I too am a closet smoker in the UK (Bristol) but am now renting my own place which is great for smoking, only in the back room.
My g/f doesn't know I am smoking & have also been smoking the same brand as u recently.
: Still puffing away in the closet and not
: regreting starting again! A few of my
: friends have commented on my new boost in
: attitude and confidence.... its all down to
: starting smoking again! Im so driven and
: much more happy knowing that once im home
: and behind closed doors I can puff away to
: my hearts content! As I remain in the closet
: its very much a "me" thing and
: enjoyed alone...... which I am fine with, I
: would love to be able to smoke at my leisure
: but as previously said, my hubby would flip
: and my family would be disgusted, so im a
: closet only woman.
:
: As mentioned he works 5 lates a week so I
: have 5 pretty much free smoking days. When
: he is off cravings are frequent and strong.
: If its the weekend I can go out shopping and
: sneak one in the car with the windows open
: or head through the park and sneak a couple.
: By the time Iv had lunch and done shopping
: the smoke smells are eliminated and its safe
: to return.
:
: If we go out for drinks its very difficult
: to think about anything other than having a
: quick puff, I get irritable and snappy, but
: if we go dancing or to clubs my mind is
: occupied enough until my next smoke break.
:
: A couple of my girlfriends smoke too, and I
: have in the past had a crafty drag or 2
: after drinks and I was thinking of telling
: them I have started smoking full time as I
: could then retreat to thier houses to smoke,
: but their fellas would have to be out as we
: all know each other and it could get back to
: my hubby so im still debating if it is worth
: it or not?
:
: My cig of choice is Berkeley menthol 100's,
: always has been, dont like non-menthol and I
: think the all white filters are more womanly
: to smoke. I have visted america a few times
: and had the pleasure of smoking 120's (Capri
: and Viginia Slims) which are my all time
: faves.... But you cant get them in England
: anywhere, But they are so nice to smoke and
: very sexy looking and feeling cigarettes!
:
: I have remained consistant in smoking about
: 15 a day when my hubbys at work and
: dissapointingly less than 5 when he's off,
: sometimes none! If I was a smoking all the
: time I would smoke more as the 15 cigs I
: smoke are crammed into the 9 hours of his
: absence so if I were smoking all the time id
: probably get through about 25-30 a day,
: which kind of excites me as thought of being
: a heavy regular smoker fascinates me.
: Sometimes when sitting in the garden I
: progressivly puff through an entire pack as
: I cant smoke later, but I dont always crave
: this process I think I do it being greedy
: and because I can as no one is there.
:
: All in all im a happy re-instated closet
: smoker who is enjoying every puff of every
: cig at the moment and im not planning on
: changing this fact.
:
: Amy
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: --Previous Message--
: Hiya,
:
: My names Amy, 28 years old from England. I
: have always been a closet smoker until I met
: my husband 4 years ago. He never knew I
: smoked and still doesnt.
:
: I secretly smoked through the first 2 years
: of our relationship without him knowing at
: all, then when we married I quit and didnt
: smoke anything at all. I was pleased with
: myself although it was very difficult to
: stop, I was only a moderate smoker smoking
: around 6 a day.
:
: I have resisted strong temptations for 17
: months, until 3 weeks ago when I caved in
: and started again. The weather is fab over
: here in England at the moment and I was
: desparate for a smoke whilst lounging round
: my garden, I went and bought 20 of my old
: regulars Berkeley Menthol 100's, and
: retreated to my garden.
:
: I considered the first one for a good hour
: but the desire was so strong I had to light
: it up. The first inhales were the best ever!
: It felt exactly what my life had been
: missing and the satisfaction was
: irreplaceble....
:
: As I sat in the garden that day I rekindled
: the old smoking joys and progressivley
: puffed my way through the whole pack. My
: hubby works as a chef and doesnt come home
: till late most evenings by which time im
: asleep usually. Hiding my habit isnt that
: difficult.
:
: For the last 3 weeks iv been slipping back
: into my old routine of closet smoking and
: feeling good about myself. I seem to be
: smoking more this time around usually about
: 12-15 a day, but somedays when he's off I
: cant have one- which is torture. Im not
: bothered about smoking more than before as
: im really enjoying it so so much.
:
: I must admit I do feel guilty as well as
: happy as my hubby would flip if he knew I
: smoked. I do wish I could smoke more openly
: and frequently but it really isnt an option,
: my family and hubby know me as non-smoker
: and they really wouldnt take to me lighting
: up every 20 minutes. It looks like I will
: have to stay in the closet on this one, BUT
: one thing is for certain and that is that I
: will not be stopping smoking ever again as I
: have realised that smoking is what my life
: has been missing and I really enjoy it so
: much... the cravings, the smokeyness,
: handling my cigs with care and always
: looking forwards to firing that next one up
: when no one is around.
:
: Any other house wifes experience this
: situation? Anyone evercome out and fired one
: up in front of thier hubby? what was the
: reaction?
:
: Amy
:
: Stories like this fascinate me. If I lived
: in England you could drop over to my patio
: any old time for a cig! Let me know how
: things go with the smokes, his days off,
: etc.
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