Posted by Paul on 6/16/2008, 5:52 am, in reply to "Why are you a closet smoker?"
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I feel your pain 
I managed to quit for a couple of years but to be honest "I am a smoker" and when I started smoking again I felt like myself again, I openly smoke infront of a number of people and I am only a closet smoker where my partner is concerned which is probably the worst place to be in the closet, she knows I used to smoke and I have tried to raise the issue of me starting again but its a non starter and to be honest as someone who never smoked and hates smoking she is never going to understand why I enjoy smoking.
How do you manage it? Do cravings cause you any issues at home etc?
--Previous Message--
: I have been a closeted f#*k for 30 years now.
:
: In a way I love it, it is my little secret
: (difficult as heck sometimes though)...
:
: On the other hand, I would so love to
: smoke freely like any other smokers...sigh.
: I know for a fact that the reason I am in
: the closet is my parents, who are majorly
: intolerant of smoking and would 'die' if
: they knew - both smoked before years before
: quitting when I was little - now they both
: live 500 miles away and I see maybe twice a
: year!!!
:
: Thing is, everyone in my life knows me as a
: non-smoker, especially my wife (!!!).
:
: It is so much a part of my 'self image' -
: being a non-smoker, I could never be
: anything else (publicly to my friends and
: family, that is).
:
: Like many, I smoke freely when away from
: folks I know. I live in a large enough city
: that that is not a big problem at all to
: smoke daily like this, walking around in the
: day, at school, easy to get away with.
:
: What a life huh?
:
: Talk to me.
: Any of you have similar circumstances?
: Does anyone relate to me?
:
: I could never come out, too many people
: would be blown away.
: You don't just 'start smoking' out of the
: blue at 45 years old - ya know?
: Arrrgghh.
:
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