Posted by sam
on 4/27/2009, 7:26 pm, in reply to "Re: Inviting Imput "
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Jay, I totally enjoyed your message- it is so true and I fall into the closeted totally approach u have- bottom line- I so enjoy smoking I can't imagine giving up the 2 a day I usually smoke- and yes if out I would most likely be one of those 2 ppd. smokers for sure- the closet keeps it at bay- as for health risks I worry- anytime I have anything funky with a cough- smoke on for now man- what brand do u smoke Jay? Sam
--Previous Message--
: " I mean, come on, we all know we are
: total
: f@#king weirdos, right?"
:
: Mick D,
:
: How right you are, and I laughed out loud
: when I read this! The lengths I go to just
: to hide my 5-10 cigarettes a week (if that)
: are laughable, and even more laughable that
: I don't just give the cigarettes up!
:
: Call me weak or wimpy, but I'm firmly in the
: closet, and I can honestly say that I would
: quit before ever being an "out"
: smoker. My wife wouldn't accept it AND would
: be furious I had kept a secret from her, and
: most of my family would be terribly
: disappointed. I'm an active and respected
: lay learder at my church, too; although my
: church is hardly that conservative, many
: people who look up to me would be very
: shocked to see me smoking. As for health
: risks, as I've mentioned before, my mom had
: lung cancer, so I'm at a higher genetic risk
: for lung cancer myself. Plus, although I
: have a good diet, I've never been physically
: active, and I've been susceptible to colds
: and allergies since I was a kid.
:
: So, I'm scared of my genetic and lifestyle
: health risks, and of disappointing people I
: love and who greatly respect me. And yet, I
: keep doing it! Why? Well, I've discovered
: one of the main reasons has to do with the
: fact I have inattentive ADD. My mind works
: like a pinball machine, moving from one idea
: or image to another quickly and
: spontaneously, never shutting up. Even now
: that I'm taking Adderall, smoking is the
: only thing (you'll probably laugh at this:
: other than praying) that turns the pinball
: machine in my mind off for at least five
: minutes. That's a welcome relief, and the
: nicotine can give me an ability either to
: concentrate or relax. With ADD, believe me,
: neither one happens very easily or often!
: Plus, like most of you say, I JUST ENJOY IT!
: I think if I weren't closeted, I'd easily
: be smoking like a chimney or would be going
: through painful withdrawals if I tried to
: quit.
:
: So, do I feel like a weirdo for this? You
: bet, and on this board, it sounds like I'm
: in some pretty good company!
:
: --Previous Message--
: I am willing to bet many people cruise this
: board regularly, as I do, looking for the
: next tale of madness from someone.
:
: I mean, come on, we all know we are total
: f@#king weirdos, right?
:
: Who else, but a whack job, would hide
: something as common as smoking from EVERYONE
: and spend as much effort doing so, as us
: closet smokers???!!!
:
: I want to see if we can get an idea of how
: many ppl come thru here.
:
: Despite whether you have something juicy to
: say, just chime in...for no reason.
: Come on, how many of us are out here?
: Share a fear, a concern, anything.
:
: Me: I often fear coming up with health
: problems. My wife will divorce me and my
: entire circle of friends would be big-time
: freaked.
:
: But I LOVE to smoke...
:
:
:
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