Posted by Matt on 5/2/2009, 6:57 pm, in reply to "Re: Inviting Imput "
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Wish I had known you as a friend. Closet smoker and closet drug user. I've never used but I've always wanted to try it and see what it's all about. Maybe some day.
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: Matt,
:
: Funny you should ask... you know, over the
: years I have had a small number of people I
: walked the fine-line of being OUT with, yet
: also was careful not to let the two worlds
: connect.
:
: I used to have a friend, she was one of my
: 'party friends' whom I hung out with and did
: drugs with that no one else woulda ever
: believed I would even do.
:
: I freely smoked when I was with her.
: She was a real good friend to me too, yet I
: made sure there was no crossover into my
: so-called real life.
: A few years ago she ODed on heroin...
:
: Then I had another friend I took a math
: class with all the way over at another part
: of the city I live. No connection to anyone
: else I knew. We used to take smoke breaks
: during class breaks and we would study
: together.
:
: She was HOT too (which is NICE, especially
: as I am one of them Fetishers too!! Ha) -
: but that was then...
:
: I could not risk continuing the friendship
: beyond school, as eventually she would have
: likely meet my wife. I was not about to
: "go there".
:
: It is odd, I mean I really thought this
: chick was cool too. But I could not risk
: it...
:
: Over the years I have had a few people whom
: I had that: "...oh, I only smoke when I
: am drinking" scheme going with. But it
: was way too hard to continue to manage, as
: there were far too many people I did not
: have any kind of smoking thing at all going
: with (ie: they wouldn't have been able to
: deal, as they NEVER knew me as a smoker)
:
: Way too complicated, especially as I am in
: my forties.
:
: F*#k you know?
:
:
:
: --Previous Message--
: Anybody else out there wish that they could
: come out of the closet at least for other
: smokers especially high school and college
: people you knew. And does anyone wonder how
: their life would be different if they had
: come out as a smoker early on?
:
:
:
: --Previous Message--
: I am willing to bet many people cruise this
: board regularly, as I do, looking for the
: next tale of madness from someone.
:
: I mean, come on, we all know we are total
: f@#king weirdos, right?
:
: Who else, but a whack job, would hide
: something as common as smoking from EVERYONE
: and spend as much effort doing so, as us
: closet smokers???!!!
:
: I want to see if we can get an idea of how
: many ppl come thru here.
:
: Despite whether you have something juicy to
: say, just chime in...for no reason.
: Come on, how many of us are out here?
: Share a fear, a concern, anything.
:
: Me: I often fear coming up with health
: problems. My wife will divorce me and my
: entire circle of friends would be big-time
: freaked.
:
: But I LOVE to smoke...
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