Posted by Rob
on 6/14/2009, 12:45 pm, in reply to "Re: brand switch up"
86.158.194.158
hit me up when you can Dave. robcsmb@yahoo.co.uk
enjoy the deep drags when you have the chance.
--Previous Message--
: That's fine with me Rob--though to be honest I
: must say that I am pretty rotten at keeping
: up with email exchanges. It's probably
: because I do an enormous amount of writing
: over the course of a week, and after getting
: done with writing that is the result of
: necessity (my doctoral dissertation and
: work-related stuff) or inspiration (the kind
: of stuff I bang out here when I'm
: procrastinating or "palate
: cleansing" between dissertation
: topics), I often lack the energy or focus to
: move on to other items like email. That
: might sound strange, but it's not meant as a
: veiled "no"--just full disclosure
: up front.
:
: Dave
:
: --Previous Message--
: Dave
:
: I know exactly what you mean.
:
: I can't say what percentage of people who
: post here are for real, but I do know when I
: can connect with a fellow genuine closet
: smoker.
:
: If you are up to it, I'd like to email each
: other directly. I was thinking about
: creating one just to share here and you can
: fire off an email to me.
:
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: It's definitely true that looking back, I
: almost feel as if becoming a smoker was not
: a choice I made. For me, it wasn't a
: question of right or wrong, or smart or dumb
: decision making; I felt so compelled to try
: it that whether I would or should do so was
: no longer a question after a while. And
: honestly, I still don't know why to this
: day. I was definitely very curious about
: it--the majority of people in my large
: extended family smoked, and I clearly
: remember wondering what it was like to
: "need" a cigarette. Still, I don't
: think curiosity alone would have ignited
: such a compulsion to try it. Maybe I'm wrong
: about my motives--I guess it's possible that
: I was subconsciously trying to be more
: grown-up or cool. Or maybe it was a way to
: feel closer to my dad, who was a sort of
: distant authority figure who smoked when I
: was young.
:
: Whatever the reason I initially tried it,
: it's very safe to say that from my very
: first cigarette, there was no way I was
: going to avoid seeking out that kind of
: pleasure again--I honestly enjoyed it that
: much. Because of this, I always inwardly
: smirk when I hear the suggestion that the
: first time someone tries smoking it will be
: horrible and unpleasant. As I stated a while
: back, I don't really remember what it was
: like not to be hooked. The reason is
: probably that while I remember plenty of
: "stuff" that happened before I
: smoked my first cigarette, the feeling that
: the nicotine gave me that first time feels
: like the first vivid memory of pure pleasure
: that I have stored away.
:
: This may sound pitiful to some folks, but to
: this day I count smoking as the single most
: consistent source of pleasure and relaxation
: I've ever found. Despite the part of my
: brain that tells me that I should quit, and
: even wishes I had never started, there is
: always that undeniable pleasure to contend
: with. There are many, many, many times--when
: I've gotten home after a long day, or
: finally managed to find the smoking lounge
: in an airport between stopovers, or stepped
: outside after a couple of drinks at a bar,
: or stepped out onto my landing after waking
: up in the morning--when I light up and find
: myself thinking "DAMN this is good;
: DAMN I'm glad I'm a smoker; DAMN I'm glad
: I've got more in the pack". I'm betting
: you know what I'm talking about--the
: satisfaction that washes through you when
: you're dragging down to your toes and the
: nicotine finally hits. I think that's
: probably what hooks most of us; there's
: nothing else I've found that's the same. Or
: even close.
:
: All of which is to say that I think you're
: right--"intoxicating fascination"
: is probably an apt phrase. It would be hard
: for me NOT to be fascinated by something
: that I enjoy so much that it's difficult or
: impossible to imagine having to go without
: it.
:
: Dave
:
:
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: I can say this much about brand changes.
:
: When I casually smoked in bars I used to
: smoke lights. When I picked up smaoking
: smaller cigars, the nicotine finally snagged
: me for good and when I bought cigs, I went
: for Camel wides (if available) or Reds. I
: have no interest whatsoever in lights and
: will not buy them.
:
: I do smoke regularly, at least within my
: limits of staying in the closet. I doubt a
: brand change at this time would change
: quantity, but who knows.
:
: by the way Dave, we seem to share much of
: the same intoxicating fascination with
: smoke.
:
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: that is true. marlboro reds produced in some
: countries don't taste as good as in other
: countries.
:
: i used to buy reds 100 (when they were
: produced in my country) but nowadays they
: are imported (at least most of the packs i
: bought said they were produced outside of
: the country) and they don't taste so good
: anymore, so i just smoke the reds.
:
: but sometimes i start asking myself why in
: some countries (southern european for
: exemple) marlboro reds are so poppular and
: in other countries they aren't and everyone
: seems to smoke the lights. the taste may
: afterall have part of the responsability for
: that.
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