Posted by Darren
on 8/4/2009, 2:50 pm, in reply to "Officially addicted, and surprisingly happy about it"
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I know exactly what you are saying here. when I first started drinking coffee, people warned me about the dangers of becoming addicted to caffeine. I didn't fear it, I was like you -- kind of excited about it. Someone once told me I would become "servant to a chemical". This didn't make me afraid, it made me wonder what being addicted would be like. I am addicted and happy. Maybe not the same power of addiction as to smoke, but cross me in the morning before I've had my coffee. Hope to hear from you more as you progress along your way in addiction.
--Previous Message--
: I've always had a certain curiosity about the
: whole concept of addiction. I always see
: smokers when it's been a few hours since
: they've had a smoke: normally calm people
: get jittery and nervous, they can't focus
: and start dropping things, and jumbling
: sentences. To normal people that may seem
: negative, but I've always been facinated by
: these side effects and wanted to experience
: them for myself.
:
: When I started smoking I was lucky to get in
: 1 cigarette a day, if that, usually only 5
: in a week, not nearly enough to get hooked.
: Recently though I've become less "in
: the closet" and started smoking about
: half a pack a day, usually more.
:
: I've always been able to make it for days at
: a time without physically wanting or needing
: a cigarette, I've always had a psychological
: addiction, but that's easy to ignore when it
: needs to be ignored. Today, I only had two
: cigarettes left in a pack when I left for
: work, and no time to make a 7-11 run. I was
: a little bummed, but not really upset about
: it, I figured I would be fine, after all, a
: month or two ago, two cigarettes in one day
: would've been a treat. Instead, I
: experienced my very first, full-blown,
: physical craving for a cigarette.
:
: It was intense beyond my wildest imaginings
: of what a cigarette craving would be like.
: Plus, when I got off work and rushed to the
: nearest convenience store, that first
: cigarette (in 5 hours) was so much more
: amazing than any I've ever had.
:
: To conclude a long story, I am officially
: addicted, and kind of excited to see what
: it's going to be like, in a sort of warped,
: slightly twisted way. I'd love to hear
: anyone else's experiences with addiction and
: cravings. The good, the bad, and/or the
: ugly...
:
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