Posted by Skyye Jane
on 7/11/2010, 12:50 pm
8.192.156.104
Hello everyone. It is so nice to have a place like this to talk about closet smoking. I have smoked on and off since I was about 13yrs old. I am 38 now. I loved the smell of B&H that my aunt smoked. I would sneak a cigarette now and then and enjoy the long drags and the good feeling I got from it. When I was even younger than that my Gramma would tell me to go and light a cigarette for her at the stove. She smoked Belair's. I remember enjoying those long drags as well. I was able to inhale at a very early age.
My cousin who is three years younger than me had a thing for smoking too so we would sneak off for a smoke. It felt great!!!
Smoking wasnt a daily or weekly thing for me but anytime I could get my hands on a cigarette I would sneak off to smoke it. I went months without smoking and still do. Though I find that the older I am getting I crave cigarettes more and more often. Now, of course, I buy my own packs of smokes. I prefer to smoke Marlboro No. 27 Blend. I use to smoke Marlboro lights but I didn't feel satisfied with those. Then one day at a social someone was smoking a No. 27 and I loved the smell. He left his cigs there and I took one and found that it gave me the satisfaction I was looking for.
My mother would be disgusted and it would be very disrespectful if she knew I smoked. In the past, I did smoke around a few select friends that were also smokers mostly if we were drinking alcohol. I am more comfortable smoking around strangers than I am friends so I will smoke around strangers sometimes or alone.
I have been wanting a cigarette so bad for the past couple of days. The last time I smoked cigarettes was 5 days ago when I was alone. Gosh it felt great to smoke them freely. Me and my mother live together for her health reasons so it is very hard concealing the smell of smoke.
I want a cigarette so bad right now as we speak but the smell would be so obvious if i did it and came back home. Just venting and thanks for hearing me out.
Skyye Jane
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