Posted by Dave
on 9/11/2011, 5:31 pm, in reply to "Re: Almost Caught"
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I take your meaning Tim. To be honest I have to say that I think Smokey's feeling of free will is more illusion than reality at this point, existing only because he hasn't yet forgotten what it feels like to spend a night out uninterrupted by his brain's demand that he find a way to supply it with nicotine. I also think we'd both agree that once a man (or woman) finds himself climbing the walls because of the sharp cravings induced by other people smoking around him, he's very likely gone quite some way past the point of no return.
I guess I should also say that as much as I've struggled with being a smoker, it really says something profound that I find it so difficult to imagine what life is like for someone who doesn't have the pleasures of cigarettes to rely on. Nonsmokers would surely be amused to know that when I contemplate their existence, I spend a good bit of the time feeling genuinely sorry for them.
--Previous Message--
: I get what you say, Dave. As regular smokers
: it's difficult to think of an evening out
: with friends at a bar NOT smoking. I'm with
: you, it's completely alien for me to think
: of sittin through an evening and not
: smoking. Smokey, however, has not crossed
: that threshold and has a very different
: mindset from a regular smoker. I, too, have
: forgotten that mindset of a non smoker...or
: a closet smoker, for that matter. Smoking
: has become very second nature to me and is
: incorporated into all aspects of my life.
:
: And, Smokey, what if you were caught?
: Somehow it would be a release, don't you
: think? When I first starting stepping out of
: the closet I'd intentionally "let"
: people catch me so they'd have to bring it
: up and not me. It was a start and it was a
: release.
:
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