Posted by Dave
on 9/12/2011, 11:34 pm, in reply to "Re: Almost Caught"
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I can only say that the origin and logic behind fascination with smoking remains largely a mystery to me as well, Norm. That, and I sincerely wish you luck--feeling compelled to smoke is troubling enough for a lot of folks. Feeling compelled to continue experimenting with it when you just don't enjoy it is no fun at all.
Dave
--Previous Message--
: I've known plenty of people in my life who
: just don't understand why anyone would be
: attracted to smoking. I wish I could have
: been like them-- my life would have been
: less complicated.
:
: Fact is that on one level I totally
: understand the attraction and on another I
: utterly don't get it. I was fascinated by
: it, drawn to it, obssessed with it, and a
: big part of the obsession was the desire to
: experience whatever it was that made people
: so devoted to a habit with such obvious
: drawbacks. The idea of smoking was alluring
: but the experience was pretty consistently
: disappointing. Amazingly, I dabbled with it
: for years in the mistaken belief that
: eventually I would get it.
:
: So yeah, it would have been way simpler if
: it just hadn't seemed attractive in the
: first place. And it would likewise have
: been simpler if I could have quickly
: accepted the fact that it wasn't for me and
: moved on. But the good news is that finally
: I _am_ moving on. And perhaps I eventually
: will be one of those people with no interest
: in cigarettes. I'm a lot closer than I used
: to be.
:
: -Norm
:
: --Previous Message--
: I've often wondered what it's like to have
: no
: desire to smoke, and no interest in
: cigarettes; it's hard for me to even imagine
: since if there actually was any such time in
: my own life I can't remember it.
:
: If this comment seems to come from out of
: the blue, it's the contrast between you and
: your brother that sparked it. Of course I
: don't know what your brother's attitude
: toward smoking is, but based on your comment
: I assume he's a never-smoker. The thought of
: spending an evening at a bar with friends
: and then driving home, without smoking and
: without wanting to smoke, is totally alien
: to me. To be honest, part of me envies it,
: as the truth is that I simply cannot be
: fully present and just enjoy the moment
: unless I'm able to light up whenever I need
: to.
:
: I suppose the converse must also be true as
: far as understanding goes. I'm glad you
: weren't caught, but if you had been I wonder
: if your brother could even begin to
: understand the lure of nicotine and the
: desire/compulsion to smoke.
:
: --Previous Message--
: So I was hanging out at a bar tonight with
: my
: brother and some friends. Some of our
: friends actually smoke. And, on a few
: occasions, they would go outside to do so.
: This was just REALLY driving my crazy. So on
: the way home, I just HAD to stop for
: cigarettes. I ended up smoking one on the
: way home. And I didn't think much of it,
: since my brother was supposedly ahead of me
: on the road. But as I neared home, I noticed
: that I was driving alongside him! This had
: me REALLY scared. And I was just sitting
: there trying to figure out how I was going
: to explain all of this to him. Anyway, when
: we got there, he said NOTHING about the
: smoking. Apparently, he drove back because
: he forgot something. But he didn't actually
: notice me until maybe a mile or two after I
: finished the cigarette! Talk about a close
: call! Had we met a little sooner, it would
: have all been over!
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