so I am a closet smoker. I used to be very anti when I was younger. It wasn't until later in life that I started to curious. I wanted to find out why people find it enjoyable, I always assumed that it was just an addiction but I started to find out that I enjoyed it without being addicted. It gave me a whole new perspective on smoking. Becuase of this I feel very hypocritical now. I've not told anyone about the fact that from time to time I like to smoke. However, I've met a couple people, who I didn't know as well, and had a cigarette with them. It was liberating, but I still felt like I needed to hide it. They didn't judge or say anything. There is no way I could ever tell any of my close friends or family. I think I have come to terms with the fact I like it and I'm quite happy to keep it hidden. I know it's not something I'll ever do reguarly, so I think it's ok to have my little secret. I'm alse very into fitness and in the general scheme of things I don't like smoking if I see someone else doing it, yet I still feel compelled.
Has anyone else had similar experiences?