Posted by Jeffery on 4/25/2012, 5:36 pm
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Hi there, here is my story: I am a male non smoker who has a smoking fetish but I have always kept it secret from everyone and I have no plans to reveal it. My wife is also a non smoker and we don't have any friends or family who smoke. We are both very active and healthy so smoking is not something we would ever consider doing. Not sure where my smoking fetish started but I sometimes wish I could get rid of it as it becomes hard to control at times. It has never got in the way of having a great relationship with my wife but I have a hard time controling it when I find myself alone for extended period of times.
A few years ago, I decided to try smoking because I was so curious about it. While I was alone at home for a few days, I just bought a pack of cigarette and smoke 2 or 3 cigarettes one night. Other than the brief rush and excitment of feeling I was doing something new and bad, I didn't particularly enjoy the experience and I quickly realized that it is purely a sexual fantasy for me. I have repeated this experience a few times over the years, about once per year. It happened to me again today, I saw a beatiful woman smoking in the park and the aroma of her cigarette smelled so good I had the urge of having a cigarette myself even though I know I wouldn't get much satisfaction from having one since I don't like smoking, I simply prefer watching a beautiful woman enjoying her cigarette. I had another urge the other day, I was walking down the street back from the coffee shop on a beatiful sunny morning when I saw a woman sitting on the stairs in front of her house, enjoying a cigarette. I almost felt like asking her for a cigarette so I could sit with her and share her pleasure!
That being said, I don't think I would enjoy seeing my wife smoking, I think I would feel too guilty of making her do something that is bad for her just like I felt the few times I tried to smoke a cigarette myself. I always get a huge sense of guilt after each cigarette I smoked during my brief smoking experiences. Even though I usually only smoke one or sometimes two cigarettes, once per year, I always have the feeling I have done something terrible for my health.
Anyone sharing a similar situation? Any advise from anyone?
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