Posted by The other Bob on 4/27/2012, 1:05 pm, in reply to "Closet smoking fetish"
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Jeff your story is almost exactly like mine. All you can do is manage you fetish carefully. It gives me some great pleasure and some guilt, but I keep it under control. I told my wife and a close friend about it and the both sort of laughed it off. They don't get the extent of it, but it did help to confess and have them not really even care.
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: Hi there, here is my story: I am a male non
: smoker who has a smoking fetish but I have
: always kept it secret from everyone and I
: have no plans to reveal it. My wife is also
: a non smoker and we don't have any friends
: or family who smoke. We are both very active
: and healthy so smoking is not something we
: would ever consider doing. Not sure where my
: smoking fetish started but I sometimes wish
: I could get rid of it as it becomes hard to
: control at times. It has never got in the
: way of having a great relationship with my
: wife but I have a hard time controling it
: when I find myself alone for extended period
: of times.
:
: A few years ago, I decided to try smoking
: because I was so curious about it. While I
: was alone at home for a few days, I just
: bought a pack of cigarette and smoke 2 or 3
: cigarettes one night. Other than the brief
: rush and excitment of feeling I was doing
: something new and bad, I didn't particularly
: enjoy the experience and I quickly realized
: that it is purely a sexual fantasy for me. I
: have repeated this experience a few times
: over the years, about once per year. It
: happened to me again today, I saw a beatiful
: woman smoking in the park and the aroma of
: her cigarette smelled so good I had the urge
: of having a cigarette myself even though I
: know I wouldn't get much satisfaction from
: having one since I don't like smoking, I
: simply prefer watching a beautiful woman
: enjoying her cigarette. I had another urge
: the other day, I was walking down the street
: back from the coffee shop on a beatiful
: sunny morning when I saw a woman sitting on
: the stairs in front of her house, enjoying a
: cigarette. I almost felt like asking her for
: a cigarette so I could sit with her and
: share her pleasure!
:
: That being said, I don't think I would enjoy
: seeing my wife smoking, I think I would feel
: too guilty of making her do something that
: is bad for her just like I felt the few
: times I tried to smoke a cigarette myself. I
: always get a huge sense of guilt after each
: cigarette I smoked during my brief smoking
: experiences. Even though I usually only
: smoke one or sometimes two cigarettes, once
: per year, I always have the feeling I have
: done something terrible for my health.
:
: Anyone sharing a similar situation? Any
: advise from anyone?
:
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