First of all, I was re-reading a lot of posts yesterday, and I just want to say thank you to all of those that have been in the closet and yet still check in and post to help others. It wasn't that long ago that I stumbled onto this site. A time when I thought that I was surely the ONLY one who would have such a hang up about smoking in public. In front of people that I don't even know!! While I am not completely there yet, just describing it sounds absurd.
Second, when I did a search for this message board this evening, I came upon a board for closet smokers that is geared towards ah ing them into quitting. Honestly, when you take yourself out of it and you hear people saying how their family and friends shame and judge them, it makes me wonder why anyone would want someone like that in their life at all. It gives me even more resolve to keep up my efforts to see myself as a smoker that I am and to embrace that as part of who I am.
I am seeing a therapist to better understand why I had the hang up about it in the first place, so I understand Robbie's excitement as he explores this aspect of himself. I am far from the expert here (I take that back, I have been an expert at being a self depreciating smoker), but the recurring theme here seems to be one of acceptance. I know it sounds crazy to those that are really closeted (it did to me), but so many people said it and it's true. Nobody really cares enough to care if you smoke or not. Or really to give it a second thought. And if they do, as I mentioned above, do you really want them in your life?