ADC
Christine, it has been years since I have been on Prayer Wave: saw it was prayer wave Friday and had to respond. You know I lost sis and john to death many years ago now. What I need to share is, as I have moved on, I still have an adc every so often from them both, mostly sis. What I need to share just shook me to the soul today or actually earlier this morning around 2 am. My son in law a little over three weeks ago killed himself. He took a noose and hung himself in his mom's garage. He texted my daughter nicci and sent a picture of him with the noose ready just before he took his life, it was a cruel thing to do to her and he left her the note. That once more he was going to let her down. Last night I was talking to sissy's BFF who was back in our little home town for a 20 year reunion High School, and she was missing Sis so, and as we talked a text popped up, it was from Michael, one he sent me weeks before ending his life, I thought they had been deleted but they came up. I was upset, as I carry a lot of guilt where he is concerned, as I was more his mother than he had ever had in his life. In these texts he was asking my forgiveness, what all he had put us and our daughter through....I never answered him and now well??? Could I get a response from your people on this it is really getting to me. God Love and Bless You all with ADC.s Mona Martin Akin.
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