Found this in my health portal this morning and got a call about setting up my pre-surgical appointment. They are proceeding as if it's going to happen.



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Eating this way is so hard. I am triggered by everything. Grocery stores, pharmacies, gas stations....every place I go (or even pass by) is associated with one or more binge foods I favor. Harry and David is advertising this multilayer chocolate cake with chocolate filling that is completely frosted with pink roses. Despite the fact that I prefer white/yellow/lemon/orange cake AND despite the fact that it cost $89, I was actually thinking about ordering it! I know it's the little girl in me who DID prefer chocolate cake and found it to be SO pretty!

With regards to the cake, I was also trying to convince myself that I could cut it up and freeze it and just have a little on special days. First, when you are eating 1500 calories, even a small slice would be at least 400 calories, not leaving much for real food AND I have convinced myself in the past that I could do this, bought a huge cake and cut it in pieces for the freezer. Ate it frozen and realized I like frozen cake with buttercream frosting!The mind games I've played with food since I was a kid. Sweets are my favorite thing in the world! (Paris is a close second!).

My very unattended gardens are so beautiful this time of year.

Dropping Cosette off at daycare in a line of SUVsof other parents dropping off their 'kids.'