The easiest way to avoid regrets is to ask yourself this question, "If not now, when?" It's a powerful way to put life and our decisions about how we spend our time into perspective"
Can you talk to your Dr and see if he can try a different medicine for your pain? When my sister Peggy had her first back surgery she was in so much pain and couldn’t stand it. She was ready to give up and talked to the Dr about it and they switched her pain meds which she said made all the difference in the world! It’s worth trying.
I pray you find some relief soon. Love you and hate you are feeling this way. (((((HUGS)))))