I'm not sure why you don't want to see the surgeon as he is trying to help you surely! Ray is a lot like you and so many others not trusting anyone = esp in the medical field. I have to trust that they are professionals and know what they are doing.

If they aren't, they shouldn't be where they are and should have their mistreatment brought to attention. I know you know this and I truly hope Friday's visit with him is in person and that you can have some honest discussion about how you feel