I am so very sorry. Grief is hard to go through. I went through a program called Griefshare. Can you go to griefshare.org ( if interested)
And it will tell you where all they are having it by you. It’s usually at churches in their side rooms. It’s so nice to
Talk to people going through exactly what you are. I went through twice about a year apart. It really did help me. You watch about a 10 min long video every week then the group talks. You can share if you want to or just listen.

Anyway I’m
Thinking of you. Hugs and prayers to you. Look at the website