Not a lot blue -- I did have a great day at work and I did get to the gym for my workout this morning.

I binged on the weekend (birthday) and felt horrible - mentally and physically. Cake - 3 pieces maybe 4 and chocolate. I went to bed feeling sick to my stomach so at least I doubt that is something I will want to do again any time soon.

I am almost 5 months out from surgery. I thought I would be down 50 by Christmas. Didn't hit that goal. Then I thought I would be down by my birthday. Nope.

I know I have lost but not like I thought I would. I do not eat properly. I reached out today to the nutrionist who sent me more information which is a good step. She advises 95-110 grams of protein daily but also 1200-1400 calories. I haven't been watching calories at all.

I'm disappointed in myself that I spent over $16K on surgery and am not taking it more serious. I have to turn this around to be what I consider to be successful.

Thanks for listening and always supporting me. Just a blue moment ...